A heavy thing.

 Dear Friends, 

Helena here.

I have been away from Faithfull Ladies League for a long time. I am sorry. I kept up on my road trip, and then I, too, took ill. Not as bad as dear Kerrie, but I was down for quite a while. After that, life things just kept me away.

I’ve been thinking and praying a lot about some of the things I heard and talked about during my travels. I visited with friends and family in a few states, and I have to say I had my eyes opened on some  things. I want to get some of them out here onto the blog, especially one main thing I have been praying on every day.

I visited my cousin Alice (not her real name) in Austin. I have to tell you, I was a little bit afraid of going to Austin. I heard that the town is over-run by liberals and that horrible group Antifa is real active there. I was nervous, but Alice and I were real close as kids and haven’t seen her in years and years. So I drove up there after I visited Kerrie in Dripping Springs.

I am scared to write this, but my heart has been heavy about it. I’ve been praying every day about if I should tell this on here. I really feel I need to.

So, Alice has a son named Robbie. Robbie is about 30 and doesn’t live in Austin anymore. And Alice told me Robbie decided he wants to be a girl! I was shocked and I didn’t know how to think about it.

Alice set me down and talked real frank about it. She said Robbie wants to be called Robin. That pronoun thing that everyone talks about? All it is that those people want to be the opposite sex and want people to call them him or her or what have you. In Robin’s case, her.

So she (it is so hard for me to think of Robbie as she!!!!) came over for dinner and I didn’t really know how to act when I saw my little nephew now wearing a dress and lipstick! But I have always loved Robin. And I support whatever she wants. It is really hard to call him by the girl name and she. I had to go back and change it on this!!!

It was the first trans person I have met and he now wants to be called Robin and called “she.” I was shocked, I really was. I didn’t know how to react when Alice told me and then I found out that R was going to come over for dinner. I am sorry, but it is really hard for me to call him by the girl name.

R is my second cousin and it is really hard to understand. And Alice told me that R. Never did feel right inside. So, it seems that R. Felt like a girl for a really long time, ever since he was a young child. I must say, it sounds like R. Had a really bad time about it. R. Went through a lot and even tried to kill himself!!! I did not know about that and it just about broke my heart but Alice says R. Is better now and feels better but also that President Trump’s policies about trans people will really be bad and R. Is really scared.  Finally about five years ago R. decided to start being a girl. Like, wearing dresses, and letting her hair grow and even wearing makeup and such!! And a bra!

Alice said that even as a girl R. Has a girlfriend! I don’t understand it all, I mean maybe skip a step and just stay a boy and go out with girls? Alice said that it is not how things work. I do not understand. But I am trying hard because I love this family so much.

Anyways Alice and me had a long talk about it and she answered all my questions. I have to confess, friends. I was too scared to ask R. About it all but Alice was real nice and we talked for quite a while.

But I got to understanding a little better and I most of all love Alice and R. And the rest of the family. 

I could never imagine being a man! My word! How weird would that be to think of be being a man!!! And when I said that to Alice, she said, that is how R. Felt all the time. Very weird in being a man. I just can’t imagine it and I don’t understand it all. I am trying though friends. I am really trying!!!

I was always to believe that God does not make mistakes. If R. was to be loved before he became a girl, then the new R is still to be loved. By me, by everyone. My heart is full, though yet it is aching.

So anyways I thought that my FLL friends should know. I am praying for Robin every day and every night.

I am glad I got this off my chest. 

Please pray for my family, dear ones.

Love,
Helena